Introduction

Hello and good afternoon! Because this is my first post on my first blog I figured some background information was necessary. I chose the name "Monster Mommy" because....well..... I am. I had never wanted kids until I met my husband. I confess that I was a little wild. Before babies I was a successful bail bond/ fugitive recovery agent. My life consisted of late nights, wild parties and even a touch of violence. I was (and still am) a karate instructor, training for over 20 years in traditional Shotokan karate. I was used to fighting, to the wild lifestyle. Then I fell in love....and got pregnant at the age of 34. I was very shocked to find that I was pregnant, I was very unsure as to what I should do. Then we lost the baby at 20 weeks. It spun my life around, the emotional pain of losing a baby is surreal. So we tried again, and had little Kira. Aaden followed two years later- and my life completely changed. I was surprised to find that my maternal love borders on maniacal obsession, a constant vigilance to keep them safe, keep them happy.  Now I sit here in this house, wondering how to reconcile my rather monstrous nature with my extreme desire to care for my beloved babies. And, true to genetics, my babies are just as monstrous as me! So this is for all of the forgotten monster mommas- those of us struggling every day to find our way.